so this whole iLL-EAGLE thing is definately coming into fruition.
-C!
P.S.: download the two singles we dropped today @ www.ill-america.blogspot.com ASAP.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Lethal Inspiration Open Mic Nite
YUUURRRRR!!!! GOOD LOOKS TO ALL MY PEOPLE WHO CAME OUT & SHOWED SUPPORT TO L.I. & iLL-EAGLE.
with that being said, i believe that we killed it. i wanna say thnx to all the new people i met that night for not booing me offa the stage. i felt like it was a great show and a great expression of freedom by all who performed except for the 40 year old drunk bitch that was going hard when i was trying introduce my songs.
in any case, shouts to @superduperkya for these pix. (yeah, i used her twttr name. its more recognizable to everyone. follow her)
-C!
P.S: iLL-EAGLE Open Mic Nite Inner City Tour!! dates coming soon.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
iLL-EAGLE
so... i'm kinda putting all my eggs into one big fuckin' basket with this rap shit. i'm going to be a celebrity rap/hip-hop artist. i know i am. how big i become is only going to be determined by the success of my work. hopefully my talents can push me thru to the big leagues. hopefully my iLL-EAGLE team can move just as smoothly with me. this is not even like... i life goal or plan anymore. if you believe in it, this is fate/destiny. i just happen to know what it is before it gets here.
this is only the beginning. a group of talented, tormented boys who range in the ages from 18 - 24 with low technology, high intelligence, the hunger for more, with a bunch of really really great yet poorly recorded songs. it'll gradually get better. better recorded songs on jacked beats turn into better recorded songs on original beats turn into electrifying performances on open mic stages all over the city turn into all over the reigon turn into all over the country. you'll see. i'm gonna run this town.
-C!
P.S: we're in the VERY beginning stages of turning the dungeon into the dungeon studio.
s/o to @IamJusthinking @MeechIsMajor @juicethacapo @TheNYSocialite @onthamoon & lastly @artfulc
PEACE
Monday, July 13, 2009
iLL-EAGLE makeover
so friday JusThink & I had us a photoshoot.
for promo. cd art, blog shit, myspace, website, media kit all that good shit.
therefore this whole blog, twitter, myspace shit i have is about to undergo some MAJOR reconstruction.
stay tuned.
-C!
for promo. cd art, blog shit, myspace, website, media kit all that good shit.
therefore this whole blog, twitter, myspace shit i have is about to undergo some MAJOR reconstruction.
stay tuned.
-C!
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
you know what really sux ?...
it sucks when a bunch of my friends graduate and can't find jobs to start their careers, so they have to settle for something that they are wayyy overqualified for.
it sucks when you brush your teeth and drink orange juice like 20 mins after, but that wack ass after taste is still in your mouth.
it sucks when people smoke cigarettes b/c there is absolutely NOTHING positive to come out of that....i need to quit smoking.
it sucks when you find a pair of sneakers in your crib that you used to rock hardbody and they still clean, so you put em on, but you realize you have to clip your toenails to fit em the right way.
it sucks when you start talking about something really important but somewhere into the conversation your mind wanders off and you (and the person your talking to) forget what the fuck you where talking about in the first place.
it sucks like hell when you can't find your phone.
it sucks when i write songs that i think are fuckin dope when i write it, but after about 3 or 4 times of repeating and memorizing the shit, i think it sucks so bad i strike it from my memory and throw it away.
it sucks when you have talent but lil things get in the way of you seeing that through, so you have to wait to express yourself.
it sucks when the peanut butter side of your pb&j sammich is too peanut buttery, so when you bite it, the shit sticks to the roof of your mouth.
it REALLY sucks when you drink tea/coffee or soup too fast and you burn your tongue, and it loses tasting sensation in that area of your tongue for the next 4 - 5 days.
it sucks when you think of something really cool and find out someone else thought about it first and made something out of it mad long ago.
-C!
it sucks when you brush your teeth and drink orange juice like 20 mins after, but that wack ass after taste is still in your mouth.
it sucks when people smoke cigarettes b/c there is absolutely NOTHING positive to come out of that....i need to quit smoking.
it sucks when you find a pair of sneakers in your crib that you used to rock hardbody and they still clean, so you put em on, but you realize you have to clip your toenails to fit em the right way.
it sucks when you start talking about something really important but somewhere into the conversation your mind wanders off and you (and the person your talking to) forget what the fuck you where talking about in the first place.
it sucks like hell when you can't find your phone.
it sucks when i write songs that i think are fuckin dope when i write it, but after about 3 or 4 times of repeating and memorizing the shit, i think it sucks so bad i strike it from my memory and throw it away.
it sucks when you have talent but lil things get in the way of you seeing that through, so you have to wait to express yourself.
it sucks when the peanut butter side of your pb&j sammich is too peanut buttery, so when you bite it, the shit sticks to the roof of your mouth.
it REALLY sucks when you drink tea/coffee or soup too fast and you burn your tongue, and it loses tasting sensation in that area of your tongue for the next 4 - 5 days.
it sucks when you think of something really cool and find out someone else thought about it first and made something out of it mad long ago.
-C!
Friday, June 5, 2009
I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me, I'm reaching out for you
I'm just so fuckin' depressed
I just can seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump
I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up
In order for me to pick that mic back up
I don't know how I pry away
And I ended up in this position I'm in
I starting to feel distant again
So I decided just to pick this pen
Up and tried to make an attempt to vent
But I just can't admit
Or come to grips, with the fact that
I may be done with rap
I need a new outlet
I know some shits so hard to swallow
And I just can't sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow
But I know one fact
I'll be one tough act to follow
One tough act to follow
One tough act to follow
One tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow
But you have to walk a thousand miles
In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes
But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful woah
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sO
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful woah
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you
I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything is so tense and gloom
I almost feel like I gotta check the temperature in the room
Just as soon as I walk in
It's like all eyes on me
So I try to avoid any eye contact
Cause if I do that then it opens a door to conversation
Like I want that...
I'm not looking for extra attention
I just want to be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room
Maybe just point me to the closest restroom
I don't need fucking man servant
Tryin to follow me around, and wipe my ass
Laugh at every single joke I crack
And half of them ain't even funny like
Ahh Marshall, you're so funny man, you should be a comedian, god damn
Unfortunately I am, but I just hide behind the tears of a clown
So why don't you all sit down
Listen to the tale I'm about to tell
Hell, we don't have to trade our shoes
And you don't have to walk no thousand miles
In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes
But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful woah
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you so
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful woah
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you
Nobody asked for life to deal us
With these bullshit hands they've delt
We have to take these cards ourselves
And flip them, don't expect no help
Now I could have either just
Sat on my ass and pissed and moaned
But take this situation in which I'm placed in
And get up and get my own
I was never the type of kid
To wait but I know to unpack his bags
Never sat on the porch and hoped and prayed
For a dad to show up who never did
I just wanted to fit in
Every single place
Every school I went
I dreamed of being that cool kid
Even if it meant acting stupid
Aunt Edna always told me
Keep making that face till it gets stuck like that
Meanwhile I'm just standing there
Holding my tongue up trying to talk like this
Till I stuck my tongue on the frozen stop sign poll at 8 years old
I learned my lesson and cause I wasn't tryin to impress my friends no more
But I already told you my whole life story
Not just based on my description
Cause where you see it from where you're sitting
Is probably 110% different
I guess we would have to walk a mile
In each other's shoes, at least
What size you where?
I wear tens
Let's see if you can fit your feet
In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes
But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful woah
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you so
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful woah
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you
Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone...
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through woah
Are you reaching out for me, I'm reaching out for you so
Yea... To my babies. Stay strong. Daddy will be home soon
And to the rest of the world, god gave you the shoes
That fit you, so put em on and wear em
And be yourself man, be proud of who you are
Even if it sounds corny,
Don't ever let no one tell you, you ain't beautiful
Thursday, June 4, 2009
need an artist?
listen, i rap my fuckin ass off at any given moment without warning.
i need to record my thoughts. if there's anybody out there looking for a versatile artist to work with; holla at me. i'm down to write any kind of song and i'm open minded as far as different ideas are concerned. i don't have a whole lot to show of my talents but hopefully, in a short amount of time that can change if the right connections are made.
P.S: i just wanna make good music.
i need to record my thoughts. if there's anybody out there looking for a versatile artist to work with; holla at me. i'm down to write any kind of song and i'm open minded as far as different ideas are concerned. i don't have a whole lot to show of my talents but hopefully, in a short amount of time that can change if the right connections are made.
P.S: i just wanna make good music.
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Saturday, May 30, 2009
Beautiful.
every once in a while some bullshit happens and i just hit a really fuckin low point where i don't even wanna deal with anything. welcome to that point. bye.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
A.C. vs Kanye West vs Lupe Fiasco
hello, my name is A.C. some call me C.J, others call me Loso, but my mama calls me Carlos and my el calls me baby. over the years other people for some reason have taken it apon themselves to call me Kanye...Yeezy.....Lil Lupe... and other thing to that accord. now i see that as a compliment in the highest regard, however i must ask, on what grounds are these means of comparison? I DON'T LOOK LIKE EITHER OF THE TWO MEN. though our style may be simillar, i am MOST DEFINATELY a greatly watered down version.
P.S: kanye west is my mother fucking idol. i look up to him in the same fashion that he looks up to jay-z. lupe fiasco is arguably one of the best to pick up a microphone in my humble opinion. and another great style aficianodo to boot. so when you read the headline don't get the wrong idea. i'm not competing or trying to compete. i just knew it'd get more attention if it said that.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
the iPhone 3G killer.
just when i thought NOTHING was ever going to be better than my iPhone 3G.... just when i thought it was untouchable. its on creator, Apple, actually created the only device that WILL undeniably, KILL THE IPHONE 3G. .... meet the iPhone 4G. one of them is a mix between a MacBook + a iTouch. the other an iTouch + a MacBook Air. 32GB. the main selling feature is iChat. you can fully text, IM, + VideoChat other phones, pc's + mac's. .....i can't wait to upgrade.
-C!
P.S: idk when its coming out. their still working on the final designs and getting out all the kinks. next up... a through review of GOD OF WAR 3 the best game ever.
-C!
P.S: idk when its coming out. their still working on the final designs and getting out all the kinks. next up... a through review of GOD OF WAR 3 the best game ever.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
my girl is gonna be sooooo tight....
TWERK TEAM!!!!!!
I swear imma make a booty song just so i can have them in my video making me all kinds of money.
-C! .... i shouldn't get in trouble right? no one reads my blog anyway...
I swear imma make a booty song just so i can have them in my video making me all kinds of money.
-C! .... i shouldn't get in trouble right? no one reads my blog anyway...
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
is twitter really that cool?
i think blogspot is better personally. i mean i guess whatever is poppin @ the time is what shall reign king over the internet. like like..... idk if you do, but i remember when BlackPlanet.Com was the shit.... then that died a horrible death when MySpace.Com dropped. myspace still killing shit kinda, but that at that time there were a few other joints dropping like sconex.com, hi5.com, and the almighty FaceBook.com. over time everything died except FaceBook. Pres. Barack Obama did his campaign on the damn site. i mean wtf. thats pretty cool.
now when it comes to this bloggin shit, this right here.... this is the shit. it don't get much better for me. so with that said, STOP ASKING ME IF I TWITTER. I DON'T. wtf does it mean to "twitter" anyway!?!? ew.
-C!
P.S: ac the guitar villain mixtape coming soon by way of iLL-Eagle in conjunction with my main BoBBiLLz with production by THE ONE + many others....
now when it comes to this bloggin shit, this right here.... this is the shit. it don't get much better for me. so with that said, STOP ASKING ME IF I TWITTER. I DON'T. wtf does it mean to "twitter" anyway!?!? ew.
-C!
P.S: ac the guitar villain mixtape coming soon by way of iLL-Eagle in conjunction with my main BoBBiLLz with production by THE ONE + many others....
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
so... here what we have now.
so i feel like lately i been listening to a lot of new artists on the come up. not trying to be like, up on the new shit exactly.... more like, studying the competition. and it seems like the new school of hip hop has much to learn but also much to teach. i mean, the only way to move forward is to constantly learn and constantly change. i can get a lesson from a complete idiot, and thats what gives me the edge.
so expect to hear me slightly, switch my style up as to stay abreast of the goings-on with the latest in hip hoppery.
-C!
P.S: yeah..... keep waiting. its well worth it. but don't think imma completely change and be some whole new mother fucka. not in the plans, so stay tuned
so expect to hear me slightly, switch my style up as to stay abreast of the goings-on with the latest in hip hoppery.
-C!
P.S: yeah..... keep waiting. its well worth it. but don't think imma completely change and be some whole new mother fucka. not in the plans, so stay tuned
Sunday, March 29, 2009
REMEMBER MEEEE!!!
GUESS WHO'S BIZACK!!!
well.... not exactly. imma be gone for a long time yet again, but while i'm here i figure i'll make a quick visit to the old blah'g. to all my followers, good looks for jockin' a pimp. lol.
nah, but i'm going through some changes in my life. i'm constantly learning and growing and figuring more & more things out. its a never ending struggle between me and myself. i've come to learn that i'm a extreamly harsh critic on me and i deserve to give me a lot more credit than i do. ::pats self on shoulder::
congratulations to everyone who is succeeding at something right now. no matter what it is. getting accepted into new schools (that means you BB, good shit on that SVA jump off), graduating, paying off debt, copping some new kicks, whatever it is that you do. big shout out to everyone who is just making moves in life and not settling for anything less than thebest for themselves.
My Ai fam, imma see yall in the summer. My iLL-Eagle team, imma see yall in a few weeks, my loving future wife, you already KNOW what we got planned, everybody else PEACE&LOVE.
P.S.: my whereabouts shall remain a mystery to all until my short trial is over and major life lessons learned.... when life gives you lemons, eat em, fix your face, and get ready for more b/c they coming coming and it gets better with time.
-C
well.... not exactly. imma be gone for a long time yet again, but while i'm here i figure i'll make a quick visit to the old blah'g. to all my followers, good looks for jockin' a pimp. lol.
nah, but i'm going through some changes in my life. i'm constantly learning and growing and figuring more & more things out. its a never ending struggle between me and myself. i've come to learn that i'm a extreamly harsh critic on me and i deserve to give me a lot more credit than i do. ::pats self on shoulder::
congratulations to everyone who is succeeding at something right now. no matter what it is. getting accepted into new schools (that means you BB, good shit on that SVA jump off), graduating, paying off debt, copping some new kicks, whatever it is that you do. big shout out to everyone who is just making moves in life and not settling for anything less than thebest for themselves.
My Ai fam, imma see yall in the summer. My iLL-Eagle team, imma see yall in a few weeks, my loving future wife, you already KNOW what we got planned, everybody else PEACE&LOVE.
P.S.: my whereabouts shall remain a mystery to all until my short trial is over and major life lessons learned.... when life gives you lemons, eat em, fix your face, and get ready for more b/c they coming coming and it gets better with time.
-C
Thursday, February 12, 2009
POOF!
just like that. all out of nowhere, he's gone.
-C!
P.S: i would love to tell you why but i don't want to drag on & on about things that don't directly concern you. just know that when i come back i'll be a better person. i love you. PEACE
-C!
P.S: i would love to tell you why but i don't want to drag on & on about things that don't directly concern you. just know that when i come back i'll be a better person. i love you. PEACE
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
MAD love already ?!?! thats hot...
YOOOOOOO!!!! lemmie just take this moment to say thnx. i got nothing but love for those who got nothing but love for me & the fam. iLL-EAGLE bout to spread them wings and fly realllllllllll high. WATCH. so far we staying sucka free. no haters... yet. not that i want any, its just i never expected so many people would see those videos & feel it as much as they say they do.
also if you not on my friends list you wildin.
myspace.com/artfulcmusic
myspace.com/iamjusthinking
myspace.com/lifeone
go handle that.
-C!
P.S: .... stop trying scare my g/f. we getting our will & jada on. & BIG shout out to my dude DREW! good looks on the feature. hit him up youreyescantspeak.blogspot.com the kid is doing it up crazy on the blogger.
also if you not on my friends list you wildin.
myspace.com/artfulcmusic
myspace.com/iamjusthinking
myspace.com/lifeone
go handle that.
-C!
P.S: .... stop trying scare my g/f. we getting our will & jada on. & BIG shout out to my dude DREW! good looks on the feature. hit him up youreyescantspeak.blogspot.com the kid is doing it up crazy on the blogger.
Monday, February 2, 2009
you prolly still ain't sure if that me rappin like that......
shit is retarded...its only gonna get worse. iLL-EAGLE!!!
-C!
Sunday, February 1, 2009
you prolly ain't even know.....
i be rappin my ass off. jusTHINK be rappin his ass off. DJ LifeOne is the truth. we are iLL-Eagle. hi!!
-C!
P.S: ...more coming soon.
i feel good right now.
me + my chick got a nice v'day planned already.
she got surprises for me..... i got surprises for her.
i just recorded a freestyle video with my iLL-Eagle family DJ LifeOne + JusTHINK.... video coming soon... like real soon. its uploading to youtube.com as we speak.
i'm doing my homework. you know that good feeling you get when you do your homework and you go to school feeling like your ready for ANYTHING.... yeah.
all + all i'm in a good mood. ask me anything.
-C!
P.S: ASK ME QUESTIONS!!! random questions, i got some shit cookin' and i need people to ask me shit.
she got surprises for me..... i got surprises for her.
i just recorded a freestyle video with my iLL-Eagle family DJ LifeOne + JusTHINK.... video coming soon... like real soon. its uploading to youtube.com as we speak.
i'm doing my homework. you know that good feeling you get when you do your homework and you go to school feeling like your ready for ANYTHING.... yeah.
all + all i'm in a good mood. ask me anything.
-C!
P.S: ASK ME QUESTIONS!!! random questions, i got some shit cookin' and i need people to ask me shit.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
2009 sneakers are getting cool again.
so i must say i was rather unimpressed with the footwear of 2008. no really outstanding designs came out. the most we got was a few pairs of re-released goodies. all those old jordans from the wonder years (#3's, 4's, 5's, 11's & 12's). maybe a few of those air max jordan fusion joints, but nothing really hit hard (to me at least, i been rocking converse's all year). until now.... idc if you love em or hate but damn those air yeezy joints dropping in march are ill.
i'm a bigger fan of those than the LV joints...maybe its just my taste. idk. in any case i'm also excited about these new jordan #1's coming out.
its looking good. nike is definitely going hard.
happy hunting to all my sneakersheads out there. neither of those are due to drop until the spring time.
addicted to the fly.
-C!
P.S: remember the OG Griffy's ??....
Friday, January 30, 2009
LUPE.N.D .... delay... however....
LUPE FIASCO IS THE MOST INFLUENCIAL HIP HOP PRESENCE IN MY LIFE. PERIOD.
like, i been wanting to be a hip hop artist since i first heard the music. and i have drawn inspiration from many. Kanye West, Busta Rhymes, Wu-Tang, Ab Liva, Naughty By Nature, A Tribe Called Quest, LL Cool J, Eminem ... to name a few. But of all i think K.West & Lupe Fiasco are my two largest influences. I relate to them more on & off the mic and their skill only gives me drive to be a better M.C. with that said i'd like to encourage all who haven't yet purchased or heard "Lupe Fiasco's Food & Liquor" or "Lupe Fiasco Presents The Cool" to definitely give them both a good listen to.
His fabled 'last' album will be entitled, LUPE.N.D, and is said to be a triple ablum, set to release this year has been postponed indefintely. HOWEVER!!!! THERE WILL STILL BE A LUPE FIASCO ALBUM THIS JUNE ENTITLED "The Great American Rap Album"
i'm excited to say the least.
-C!
like, i been wanting to be a hip hop artist since i first heard the music. and i have drawn inspiration from many. Kanye West, Busta Rhymes, Wu-Tang, Ab Liva, Naughty By Nature, A Tribe Called Quest, LL Cool J, Eminem ... to name a few. But of all i think K.West & Lupe Fiasco are my two largest influences. I relate to them more on & off the mic and their skill only gives me drive to be a better M.C. with that said i'd like to encourage all who haven't yet purchased or heard "Lupe Fiasco's Food & Liquor" or "Lupe Fiasco Presents The Cool" to definitely give them both a good listen to.
His fabled 'last' album will be entitled, LUPE.N.D, and is said to be a triple ablum, set to release this year has been postponed indefintely. HOWEVER!!!! THERE WILL STILL BE A LUPE FIASCO ALBUM THIS JUNE ENTITLED "The Great American Rap Album"
i'm excited to say the least.
-C!
Monday, January 26, 2009
Chris Rock is a Fucking Liar.
'I Think I Love My Wife' is a bouleshit ass movie. ain't a black man alive gonna rub Kerry Washington down with oils, kiss her up, defintiely get PROMISED the pussy, real kinky pussy too (with black patented leather pumps on),.... TAKE HER PANTIES OFF.... and not smash. period. i mean think about it... if his wife found out that he was even there with that bitch, she'd probably still divorce him & take everything they have & the fucking kids. all that and he STILL AIN'T GET NO PUSSY!! he might as well fuck somebody. fucking asshole.
-C!
P.S: ....anything you do with someone outside of your relationship, that you can't tell the person your in a relationship with you did; is cheating.
-C!
P.S: ....anything you do with someone outside of your relationship, that you can't tell the person your in a relationship with you did; is cheating.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
keep your head up and your eyes open....
i'm on alert. as you should be as well. people in your life have hidden agendas, wether you want to believe it or not. people talk about you when your not around. good, bad & ugly, your name comes up in conversation when you don't even know it; daily. you can not please everyone; and in doing such you form enemies in your life, wether you are conscience of this or not. wether they make it known to you or not. someone doesn't like you.
now i'm not trying to scare or frighten anyone. i'm not trying to throw any subliminal messages to anyone either. i'm just trying to make you a bit more aware of what's going on around you so that you don't fall victim to the traps. i'm not really a bible verse quoter kinda guy so pardon me if i spoil this, but i know somewhere in the book of John it says something about, this world, this 'kingdom' that we live in isn't ruled by God above in heaven. this world is that of the wicked one. in that, there are traps laid for us to fall into his grasp.
you can't duck them all. you won't. no one does. just be aware of your surroundings, your associates, your family, your friends, your activities, your behaviors, your beliefs, and most importantly your own thoughts. keep your head up and keep your eyes open.
-C!
now i'm not trying to scare or frighten anyone. i'm not trying to throw any subliminal messages to anyone either. i'm just trying to make you a bit more aware of what's going on around you so that you don't fall victim to the traps. i'm not really a bible verse quoter kinda guy so pardon me if i spoil this, but i know somewhere in the book of John it says something about, this world, this 'kingdom' that we live in isn't ruled by God above in heaven. this world is that of the wicked one. in that, there are traps laid for us to fall into his grasp.
you can't duck them all. you won't. no one does. just be aware of your surroundings, your associates, your family, your friends, your activities, your behaviors, your beliefs, and most importantly your own thoughts. keep your head up and keep your eyes open.
-C!
Monday, January 19, 2009
Ciroc Obama meets Barack Obama
Diddy & Obama met like 4 years ago & this happened.
Happy Barack Obama Day.
-C!
Happy Barack Obama Day.
-C!
another not-so-good-look for your boy Young Berg.
i mean.... its like.... i know its gotta be hard being young berg. the kid comes fresh into the music business and all that, had himself some good joints. like, you can't front, he had a few bangers. 'give you the business' was ill. now he gets no respect over ya know... Maino slapping him up..... niggas taking his jewelry and MAD people taking pictures with it, only for it to be fake jewels. even Ne-Yo said on the raido he wants to '3 finger slap' this kid. its gotta be difficult going thru this as an artist..... and then this video emerges....
-C!
-C!
Friday, January 16, 2009
damned if you do..... damned if ya don't
i didn't do it. like, seriously. i know that everyone that goes to jail claims their innocence hard body no matter what. but seriously, this time i really didn't do it. they put me away anyway tho. 2 nights & 3 days was the sentence. yeah i know it ain't shit but i saw so much people not even make it thru the first 6 hours. its so uneasy when your stuck somewhere for an extended amount of time not knowing what is going to happen to you next.
its wack as hell being in a situation where your at a place you don't belong in and you know it in your heart, but no one else wants to even fathom the thought of believing you. especially when they have to cover their own ass. like.... i went down on account of someone elses mistake. someone who actually has the power to keep me in and out of places like that. but i guess when its a 'your neck on the chopping block, or mine' kind of deal; obviously they choose the former.
i can't blame the system too much i guess. my actions prior to this incarceration may have indeed aided to this sanction to some degree and i'm dealing with that. i guess if i had to be angry at someone i should guide that frustration at myself. but thats not healthy. so with that said; i hold no grudges with anyone involved. i'm a forgiving individual. forgiving myself and others is the first step in my revenge. the second step is proving them all wrong.
i guess the worst part of all this for me is losing the respect of my parents. they worked so hard raising me and this is what they have. a fuck up for a first born son who waited til he was a grown ass man to have a teenage wild streak. i always felt like i never could please them. i never got any recognition or support for anything good i ever did. they only paid attention to the negative aspects of my life. and me being the fuck up i am, i kept feeding them shit to pay attention to.
i can only blame myself for that also. my decisions are just that; my decisions. good, bad or ugly these are things i have to deal with on my own, if not before then especially now. maybe i sound like some self-pitying sob story right now... maybe because i am. my self-esteem, my confidence, my self worth, is definitely at an all time low. i'd be lying if i said suicidal thoughts didn't cross my mind today. I AM NOT GOING TO DO IT. so don't freak out. but seriously, doesn't everyone contemplate killing themselves when things get really bad (maybe, maybe not; if not, feel free to look at me really really weird right now. i won't feel no kinda way about it)?
i know i'll make it out of this slump, most likely when i finish writing this. i just really needed to vent. i'm hurt right now. i feel like i disappointed my parents to a unforgivable degree. worst part is i didn't even do it. i'm going thru all this hurt because some dickhead at a courthouse mixed up my piss cup with someone elses. no one wants to hear that tho. idk. i guess harvey dent said it best, "the night is darkest before the dawn." maybe i put too much worth into quotes from batman movies..... maybe its just a good comforting thing to say.... or maybe its the truth, and around the corner i have some serious blessings coming my way. who knows. all i know is i have a lot to prove to a lot of people before i can start feeling like the old me.
i'm my own worst enemy and i have to retaliate to the abuse i've been giving me.
the best revenge is my success & i have a serious vendetta to fulfill.
-C!
P.S: to my girl Lauraisha, i love you. you always by my side no matter what. i'll give you the world once i own it. to my best friend Matthew, i love you too. blood couldn't make us any more of the brothers we already are. to my immediate family; Chris, don't be like your big brother. be better than me in every way you can & keep making mom & dad proud. M&D (they'll probably never see this in their lives for various reasons), i love yall. i'm a bonehead for a son & even though you guys have lost your faith in me, i love you. hopefully one day i can be fortunate enough to gain that back and we can reconcile everything between us. & Matthew. & most importantly your future daughter-in-law, el.
P.P.S: ayo t'day. happy b'lated. sorry i couldn't make your party tonight. tell them niggas A.C. is nice tho & imma catch up to em in a few months..... niggas in the pen keep callin me baby ye n shit like that.
its wack as hell being in a situation where your at a place you don't belong in and you know it in your heart, but no one else wants to even fathom the thought of believing you. especially when they have to cover their own ass. like.... i went down on account of someone elses mistake. someone who actually has the power to keep me in and out of places like that. but i guess when its a 'your neck on the chopping block, or mine' kind of deal; obviously they choose the former.
i can't blame the system too much i guess. my actions prior to this incarceration may have indeed aided to this sanction to some degree and i'm dealing with that. i guess if i had to be angry at someone i should guide that frustration at myself. but thats not healthy. so with that said; i hold no grudges with anyone involved. i'm a forgiving individual. forgiving myself and others is the first step in my revenge. the second step is proving them all wrong.
i guess the worst part of all this for me is losing the respect of my parents. they worked so hard raising me and this is what they have. a fuck up for a first born son who waited til he was a grown ass man to have a teenage wild streak. i always felt like i never could please them. i never got any recognition or support for anything good i ever did. they only paid attention to the negative aspects of my life. and me being the fuck up i am, i kept feeding them shit to pay attention to.
i can only blame myself for that also. my decisions are just that; my decisions. good, bad or ugly these are things i have to deal with on my own, if not before then especially now. maybe i sound like some self-pitying sob story right now... maybe because i am. my self-esteem, my confidence, my self worth, is definitely at an all time low. i'd be lying if i said suicidal thoughts didn't cross my mind today. I AM NOT GOING TO DO IT. so don't freak out. but seriously, doesn't everyone contemplate killing themselves when things get really bad (maybe, maybe not; if not, feel free to look at me really really weird right now. i won't feel no kinda way about it)?
i know i'll make it out of this slump, most likely when i finish writing this. i just really needed to vent. i'm hurt right now. i feel like i disappointed my parents to a unforgivable degree. worst part is i didn't even do it. i'm going thru all this hurt because some dickhead at a courthouse mixed up my piss cup with someone elses. no one wants to hear that tho. idk. i guess harvey dent said it best, "the night is darkest before the dawn." maybe i put too much worth into quotes from batman movies..... maybe its just a good comforting thing to say.... or maybe its the truth, and around the corner i have some serious blessings coming my way. who knows. all i know is i have a lot to prove to a lot of people before i can start feeling like the old me.
i'm my own worst enemy and i have to retaliate to the abuse i've been giving me.
the best revenge is my success & i have a serious vendetta to fulfill.
-C!
P.S: to my girl Lauraisha, i love you. you always by my side no matter what. i'll give you the world once i own it. to my best friend Matthew, i love you too. blood couldn't make us any more of the brothers we already are. to my immediate family; Chris, don't be like your big brother. be better than me in every way you can & keep making mom & dad proud. M&D (they'll probably never see this in their lives for various reasons), i love yall. i'm a bonehead for a son & even though you guys have lost your faith in me, i love you. hopefully one day i can be fortunate enough to gain that back and we can reconcile everything between us. & Matthew. & most importantly your future daughter-in-law, el.
P.P.S: ayo t'day. happy b'lated. sorry i couldn't make your party tonight. tell them niggas A.C. is nice tho & imma catch up to em in a few months..... niggas in the pen keep callin me baby ye n shit like that.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
more from sting 2008
yo! man a badman and me nahhh care about cuteness, but even i can't resist the charm of the youths. beenie man's 2nd set @ sting '08 was too ill to go unmentioned. enjoy. (hopefully)
-C!
-C!
addictive & destructive behaviors.
so due to the case i caught back in august, my life has taken a different route. as a jail alternative i'm in an out patient drug treatment program for 12 -16 months, a lil community service and my record is good; my debt to society paid. now in complying in such a program i absolutely had to quit smoking marijuana (bummer, right?). my time in this program must be clean and sober and they suggest that i abstain from any & every mood and mind altering substance; that means alcohol too.
now i do agree, that alcohol is a destructive thing that in excess over time will most definitely deteriorate ones body from the inside out. you see the active ingredient in alcoholic beverages is ethanol. a chemical found in every kind of gasoline. drinking is most certainly an addictive and destructive behavior.
....but dammit if it don't get the partyyyyy started ryyyyyte!!! you see, even tho i'm in this situation i can't subtract from my life then things that make me such a delight to the world lol. i'll put down the blunts and joints and bongs, but fuck you if you taking a drink outta my hand. i'm 23 & a half and dammit, daddy gots to live too.
-C!
P.S: notice how this post started sounding pretty educated and gradually dumbed down to the drunken stupor that i'm actually in at the moment. LOL.
now i do agree, that alcohol is a destructive thing that in excess over time will most definitely deteriorate ones body from the inside out. you see the active ingredient in alcoholic beverages is ethanol. a chemical found in every kind of gasoline. drinking is most certainly an addictive and destructive behavior.
....but dammit if it don't get the partyyyyy started ryyyyyte!!! you see, even tho i'm in this situation i can't subtract from my life then things that make me such a delight to the world lol. i'll put down the blunts and joints and bongs, but fuck you if you taking a drink outta my hand. i'm 23 & a half and dammit, daddy gots to live too.
-C!
P.S: notice how this post started sounding pretty educated and gradually dumbed down to the drunken stupor that i'm actually in at the moment. LOL.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Sting 2008
well listen, i know most of my readers don't really follow dancehall reggae music. i know a lot of you can't understand what they say because the dialect is so heavy. regardless of those facts, i must remind you that this is my blog that i share what interests me. i am of west indian decent and there is a whole other world of music that i listen to. with that being said......
if you haven't been living under a rock for the past 4 years, then you should be well familliar with the names Vybz kartel & Movado. these two dancehall giants crank out hit after hit year after year. NOW, they reallllllllly don't like each other and have been feuding for some time. at jamaica's annual Sting concert, this year they took stage in rare form; together. it was the most explosive battle since the beginning stages of Bounty Killa vs Beenie Man.
everyone has their personal favorites (i really support both artists but i'm more of a vybz fan... LYRICS!!) but you can view the footage and judge for yourself. with no further due i present to you...
VYBZ/MOVADO CLASH STING 2008 PT. 1 & 2
(excuse the poor quality of these videos but thats all that was availible)
if you haven't been living under a rock for the past 4 years, then you should be well familliar with the names Vybz kartel & Movado. these two dancehall giants crank out hit after hit year after year. NOW, they reallllllllly don't like each other and have been feuding for some time. at jamaica's annual Sting concert, this year they took stage in rare form; together. it was the most explosive battle since the beginning stages of Bounty Killa vs Beenie Man.
everyone has their personal favorites (i really support both artists but i'm more of a vybz fan... LYRICS!!) but you can view the footage and judge for yourself. with no further due i present to you...
VYBZ/MOVADO CLASH STING 2008 PT. 1 & 2
(excuse the poor quality of these videos but thats all that was availible)
Saturday, January 3, 2009
the alchemist lose your life
this video is ill. i really like this shit. its very bevis & butthead with the animation which is VERY cool seeing as how that was at some point my favorite show, and you already know i look up anything having to do with Pusha or the Clipse or any of the RE UP GANG. Enjoy!
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