the people you love the most are the people that hurt you the most

this one is kinda personal. bear with me....

so, i love my mother. she carried me for 9 1/2 months, went thru labor for an alleged 8+ hrs, nurtured me all the way through, and helped me to no end. i love her.
but now that i'm a man i find that shes having difficulty letting go. and that difficulty is turning her into a controlling, annoying, nagging, discouraging .... i have too much respect to call her a bitch...
granted i may have done somethings to provoke certain elements in her behavior, i can deal with that knowing that i'm on a road to recovery and redemption. and thats evident to all, so this leaves me asking; when is enough, enough? what ever happened to let the punishment fit the crime? i feel like i messed up, and  i deserve some rebuttal to my actions, but when its clear that i've learned from my mistakes, shouldn't there be some ease? why does she feel the need to press issues and make them that much worse? i can't deal.
i know its time for me to go. i'm preparing for a departure from the nest. but my situation is so complicated its so hard for me to make that move, and life here with her just isn't getting any better.
i can't do anything i want to do, because everything i do is disrespectful to HER house. i'm 23 years young and this is no way for a man like me to live. my dad isn't any better, my brother is a pest and i'm going crazy. being home is the last place i ever want to be and its so unfortunate that i have to be here so often.
this blog has no relevance to anything... i just needed to vent.

-C.
P.S: just b/c you love someone does not mean you have to like them at all.

be yourself.

don't you hate it when people use words bigger than themselves to sound smarter than they are? those are the types of people who act totally different around people than they do around family. i mean to some degree i guess everyone does, but i'm talking about those who make that complete 180. night & day. hot & cold. real & fake. i hate to notice when someone is putting on a fake persona.
this trend is becoming ever present in 2008. don't blog about some shit and load it up with a bunch of 13 letter words cuz you think people will accept you as a better writer. you can use the words you do everyday; please, just spell them right.
be yourself and the world will either accept you for you... or shun you for you. either way, stay true to you. b/c when you fake and try to be something your not; the world will notice and real people will call you out on it.

-C!
P.S: i'm only blogging again b/c a few loyal readers requested my service. this blog is my kingdom come; i'm hova with the keys. (take it how you want to....)

P.P.S: stay tuned... artful_carlito@yahoo.com

I'm environment friendly :)

why can't scientists come together to make some kind of manmade gasoline-like chemical to help aid the planets fossil fuel crisis and improve American economy?

if the government can manage to produce a new medicine or PILL for any and everything that can possibly happen to the human body, convince us that it is a problem when it happens, then charge us out the ass for treatment, then how hard could it possibly be to come up with a scientific fix to fuel a MACHINE that WE created?

this doesn't even strike me as a good, great, world shattering idea so now i must ask; why haven't i ever heard of this as an option before?


this random thought was the first of many via iPhone.
-C!

a few random things to say....

#1 - the iPhone is probably the illest piece of technology i have ever owned.

#2 - this summer session at my school is finally over this week. shit has been so stressful this summer from job hunting, to making & breaking & mending & realizing different relationships with different people, to financial woes, to jail, to bail, to my temporary position with the family business, to the professional job hunt, to rebuilding myself and finally growing up.

#34 - my legal issues are still not over. court date thursday. pray for me.

#864 - i can't wait for a fresh clean start academically this fall. i had so much stress on my head i feel way out of touch with things and i was broken mentally & emotionally for a long while. that obviously affected my studies and spilled into every other avenue of my life. i just need to take a break from everything, a small vacation to breathe and come back.

#8 - i feel like my creativity is being geared to music way harder than it has ever lately. i'm making some good connections and guys ..... i honestly feel like i just might be the next big thing. watch me please. i know its a long time coming but i'm telling you stay tuned.

#13 - i want that new macbook. you know the black one. that shit is tough.

#5,685 - Star Wars: The Force Unleashed is fucking sick!!!! xbox 360 a gwan MAD!!! everyting boom bang CONNECT!!!!

#23 - the artful image concept is currently closed to the public still. building a company from the ground up is not easy & it is time consuming. its gonna happen asap tho. i'm a multitasker so all my ideas & aspirations will be realized simultaneously. 

#9 - i told you this was random.....






this kid is pretty cool.









yeah thats all i got to say right now. stay up & wait for my next move.
-C!

i do this from time to time ....

listen guys.... i am currently a student @ the art institute of nyc. being such entails that i can handle a rather large workload full time. i also have a part time job. if you are looking to do further business with me at this point in time my apologies for not being hastier in our endeavors, but i am indeed a student before anything else. this summer especially has been quite a tumultuous one on us all & quite taxing on me in particular. i'd ask in kindness and good faith that anyone who i have previous engagements with, and to those looking to spearhead new projects, that you wait until i am finished with my summer schedule in about 2 weeks.

thnx
-C!
P.S: Valdimir i didn't forget your pix homie. IDK why you couldn't see em before but check em out right here real quick.

i love cartoons but this is fucked up

during my usual youtube.com searchings for weird things to share with you all, i've stumbled accross a number of banned cartoons. i find that cartoons are used as the media engine to slide in subliminal messages to our children, because everyone knows - kids never forget whats on tv.
in any case, these cartoons in particular were banned b/c the message that was to be subliminal, didn't quite come off as discreet as required.
i now without further due, present to you, straight from the files of youtube.com,

YOUTUBE.COM's GALLERY of LOST ANIMATED PROPAGANDA

(please watch them in their entirety)

Spongebob Squarepants IS gay.

OMFG BUGS BUNNY IS A NAZI 

....AND A RACIST

WANTED: NIKE AIR JORDAN RETRO/OG 3's

ok so if you know me you are probably aware of my stacks upon stacks of sneakers. with that being said i'm desperately trying to add to the collection, however i'm going through a pivotal stage in life right now where my style indeed is transforming. i'm getting older, getting rid of the helio & getting an iPhone, and getting a new style cuz i feel like i'm becoming average and it frightens me. most change is born out of fear but thats neither here nor there... i have a few more purchases to make before i enter a whole new style into my wardrobe. my main target? these bad boys right here....

 

any information about any of these suspects should be promptly reported to Artful C!.

-C!